And this is exactly why our society hates children.
This may be the single biggest thing I’ve realized since my “leave,” while most moms just need a break to get out, that idea is failing me miserably. I hate going out alone, and I really really hate going out in the winter. It’s called Raynauds and I’m cold, though the cute handwarmers I won at the bazaar and have not taken off all day are fun. I think I may need a pair in every color though! Really the only time I have ever enjoyed going out alone is to the beach, where “He walks with me and He talks with me and He tells me I am his own.” That probably explains why I lost the dog the last warm day I was out gardening alone too It also explains why I went from needing my Adoration hour like the air I breathe to dreading it. When I changed my time slot, I had no idea I was picking the busiest hour of the week. It was like the chapel had a revolving door. I know, that’s awesome! Praise the Lord! Yet for an introvert who finds renewed energy in seclusion, it felt like fighting to get through a WalMart line on Black Friday.
So after much discernment I took some time to find some time and have some time to just listen. I assumed God was going to show me I’d been using busy work to stay away from Him, but to my delight I found that wasn’t His answer at all. In fact last weekend, when I ran away to work behind the scenes at the church bazaar for 2 days, I was recharged and rejuvenated! In the midst of my busy work, I found myself engaged in conversation with the Lord, like I haven’t known in far too long for a human soul. I thought of how St Therese would do little things in love and offer them to the Lord. I thought of how moms are always told as we do our dishes offer them to the Lord, and then I thought, “but how do I do that when I have 5 people constantly hanging on me, talking to me, needing me, wanting me, and pulling me in 5 directions?” Truly it is a blessing, don’t misunderstand, and I am painfully aware I’m going to miss this, but it it doesn’t allow an introvert, certainly not one with ADHD, 1 on 1 time with God.
Then today I realized my 1 day of leave a week for the past 4 has really only been 2. I lost 1 when my husband was travelling for work, and the other is the day before Thanksgiving. I haven’t even technically lost it yet, but just the thought of it has me sinking. I’m hungry for that time alone with the Lord. My husband had challenged me to think about how I would feel when I returned in January if things weren’t different, and today I realized I’d go back into drought. God isn’t calling me back into a drought, but He’s also not calling me away from loving the little ones He’s entrusted in my care and blessed me to teach. I miss them so much! He’s not calling me away from the passion He placed inside me for the hybrid school or the calling He’s given me that brings me so much life either. So how do I prepare for my journey back? If something has to give, what is it?
That is when I realized the answer, today at Mass actually. Everyone knows every once in a while a stay at home mom needs to break away for awhile, but what about the introverted mom? Introverts don’t need to just get out and get away for a few hours. That will just exhaust them. Introverts need everyone else in the house to go out and get away for a few hours. I know God has called me to home-school, and to love my children of course, but He’s also called me to enjoy every precious moment with them, realizing the sands of time slip through my fingers too fast and I can’t get those years back.Through World Wide Marriage Encounter I am finding a new found freedom to fully embrace God’s vocation for my life as my husband’s wife. I am learning to free myself from the judgement, criticisms, old tapes, and guilt that condemn me for not giving my kids 500% 24/7. I’m learning I can be loved for being imperfect, and though those stories would be an Elijah House blog, I must say, my dh has always been amazing to swoop in and love me in all my imperfection.
With all of this information, I feel like I’m sitting in the middle of a room holding a piece to a puzzle saying God, how could I possibly be Your Masterpiece? How do I be the stay at home, home schooling mom, who holds down the fort while my husband travels, and gives my all because I want to answer the call, but then still needs solitude! My support system says go out and have some you time, but that’s the very last thing I want! Truly, I just want to stay in and have some me and You time. It seems like it’s just all backwards, or does it? Maybe the gift to the introverted stay at home mom is to give her a day off in her home, a day when she gets to just sit by the fire, and listen to music, and look over pictures, cry, pray, dance, laugh out loud, and be free to be with her Heavenly Father…. We’ll see how well this goes over, but I’m thinking if the question is how do introverted stay at home home schooling mothers find sanity? The answer is they kick everyone out of the house….
Which makes me wonder, how many of the women I know who long to homeschool and fear they can’t are introverts too? Because the truth is homeschooling is anything but isolated. Don’t get me started on the socialization question, because I’ll have to stop laughing first. I was never as engaged in a community or active with friends as our 3 are, and we try to keep their schedule light…. So now I am praying God will make a way, because it’s what I need…. and perhaps if it is what other introverted mom’s need, then we can forge a path of Mom’s Day In together Because as faith filled faithful Moms, we really are trying to be all He has called us to be, without changing who He has made us to be, kwim?
I’ve seen people state they won’t sign this petition, because it is a White House petition. My response to that is this: if you won’t stand up for someone in need, who will stand up for you? Would you stand up for Jesus? Yes, I went there, because this is real. This is someone’s family, someone’s children, someone’s life, and our Justice Department wants to tear it apart. In only 12 days, the petition to seek a formal response from our President to the plight of the Romeike family will close. If HSLDA doesn’t gain 45 thousand more signatures by then, the petition will simply be erased from the White House website.
When it is our turn, who will stand up for us? NOW is the time to act. Let’s not allow fear of the government to stop us from standing up for what is right! Get all the instructions you need by going to www.hslda.org/romeike
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From today’s Gospel reading, John 11:45-56, I was particularly struck by verses 49 -52.
But one of them, Caiaphas, who was high priest that year,* said to them, “You know nothing, nor do you consider that it is better for you that one man should die instead of the people, so that the whole nation may not perish.” He did not say this on his own, but since he was high priest for that year, he prophesied that Jesus was going to die for the nation, and not only for the nation, but also to gather into one the dispersed children of God.
I’m no theological scholar. I’m certainly not an expert in apologetics, but I couldn’t help but think of the common criticism “Why do Catholics need a Pope?” and the verse Matthew 5:17, “Do not think that I have come to abolish the law or the prophets. I have come not to abolish but to fulfill.” Christ is the word made flesh (John 1). He wrote the law, and it was good, so good He was willing to suffer, die, and be buried for our transgressions to fulfill it. It was a law so good that He was willing to give a gift of love so amazing, we memorialize the day He saved us from it’s death sentence by taking our place, and we call it Good Friday.
So I have more than once thought it is reasonable to presuppose that His will before His death would remain after His Resurrection. After all, He is the same yesterday, today, and tomorrow (Hebrews13:8). In other words, He ordained for a high priest. He ordained for Caiaphas, and even though Caiaphas himself did not understand, and was about to kill his God, the One who would fulfill it all, he still had the gift of prophesy, because he was in a position God directed. Why would that position and the gifts stop, because Christ fulfilled the law? Again, His word says He didn’t come to abolish His law. His word says He doesn’t change from yesterday (before crucifixion) to tomorrow (after crucifixion), and His word testifies to the preexistence of Himself, the incarnate Logos, who reveals God the Father. If the Pentecostal church can embrace men and women, who they recognize as anointed with the gifts of prophesy, words of knowledge, and revelation, why is it so hard to believe that the same God, who gave Caphias revelation would still give the High Priest of His church today, the same (aka papal infallibility)?
It’s times like this I wish I could speak with eloquence, and reveal His mysteries in a way that would make it all plain as day, because there is so much evil, the battle is great, the world is dark, and I long for us, His children, to be united, edifying each other, supporting one another, and building each other up, as we journey home through the dark days ahead. It is in that spirit, I say this with the best of my love.
It is almost Saint Patrick’s Day, the day I always smile extra big, because I get to watch my favorite video over and over (never mind that I am actually 3/4 Irish …)
Here is a great prayer I found today too. It is a wonderful compliment to the truths in the video:
“We thank you, gracious Father,
For St. Patrick, our dear friend
Who brought the Catholic faith
To the folks of Ireland!
If not for dear St. Patrick,
Heathens we’d still be-
Prayin’ to false gods
Instead of the Blessed Trinity!!”
Happy St. Patrick’s Day!
Life in Christ: Catechism #2142
The second commandment prescribes respect for the Lord’s name. Like the first commandment, it belongs to the virtue of religion and more particularly it governs our use of speech in sacred matters.
Tonight my husband and I were watching bits of Apollo 13, and to tell you the truth it is such a difficult movie for me to enjoy. Why? Because I am watching actors portray brilliant men of math and science, wonderful explorers, american heroes, exemplary men who led, the kind of men that went Into the Wild; yet, Hollywood decided to slip in g/d as much as they possibly could. As Mr Lovell said, “…we never used those words. To be certain, Fred went back and went through the entire air-to-ground transcripts from the mission. He couldn’t find one instance of swearing.”
Many of us could probably write dissertations as to why, but it still leaves us with the very sad reality that our world does everything in its power to tear down the notion of great men for not only women and daughters, but also for sons and our men right here and right now. I am here to say, men you were created for greatness, and your wives and children hunger for it. So many of our men today, didn’t grow up with a Dad to show them the way, and to them I say don’t let Hollywood define for you what a real man is. Instead let your Creator tell you who you are and who you are in Him!
“You have before you the task of seeking new ways to announce Christ in situations of rapid and often profound transformation, and of emphasizing the missionary character of all pastoral activity.” - Pope Benedict XVI, Find New Ways to Announce Christ, Vatican City, February 8, 2008
Secular media’s goal is to be first, not right. It leads to a lot of spinning and misinformation. It applies a secular political model, and it works to remove God from the process. For example, how often do we hear someone on CNN say, “they will seek the Holy Spirit?” Consider this contrast, EWTN President & CEO Michael P. Warsaw states “Our goal is to be right not first.” This is an important distinction to know for truth seekers. As Evangelical Catholics, I argue it is our duty, responsibility, and privilege to be good stewards of accurate information in this time of sensationalism, conspiracy, and progressive relativism with all of its disregard for history, just to name a few! Below is a list of helpful resources to equip.
As we enter this Lenten Season, let us join together in prayer and fasting for Pope Benedict XVI and his to-be-named successor. Remembering, we draw our strength from the Lord and put on the armor of God, being girded in truth, clothed with righteousness, feet ready to bring the good news, with faith as a shield, salvation as our helmet, and the word of God as our sword. Then “with all prayer and supplication, pray at every opportunity in the Spirit…” Ephesians 6: 10-20).
Helpful News sites:
- National Catholic Registry (a branch of EWTN)
- Catholic News Agency
- Word on Fire Blog by Father Robert Barron
- Catholic World News (a branch of catholicculture.org)
Helpful Book Resources:
- Misinterpreting Catholicism: How Media Coverage Distorts Public Understanding of the Church (ebook)
- Evangelical Catholicism: Deep reform in the 21st Century Church by George Weil
Helpful TV/Streaming site:
How could Hillary Clinton testify, “What difference does it make?” Easily! Progressives don’t believe the best indicator of future behavior is past behavior. They don’t believe history repeats itself. They reject the wisdom of the ages that those who do not learn from history are doomed to repeat it, and they want nothing to do with outdated Biblical principles such as, “there is nothing new under the sun.” Instead they choose to believe they can continue to evolve with brand new ideas, never thought of beliefs, and completely new philosophies. For example, the board of education in Alaska once asked their 3rd graders to write about an invention no one has ever thought of before, and explain why it was so needed in the world today. Though this was incredibly progressive of them, you can imagine how well they did on their benchmark goals that year. Reason # 3,549 why we home school.
”Darkness cannot drive out darkness; only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate; only LOVE can do that.” Martin Luther King Jr.
”Darkness cannot drive out darkness; only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate; only LOVE can do that.” Martin Luther King Jr.